Sunday, August 29, 2010

Sunday Morning

Emma wore a very special dress to church this morning. I made this dress for Ellie for her very first Easter, eleven years ago.
These were Ellie's shoes.
Kind of a smile.
Time for a Sunday afternoon nap, even though Emma slept seven and a half hours last night!

Ben by Anna


We've all been trying to capture Emma's smiles on camera. These pics are Anna's attempts. No...
No smile yet...
Aha! A big one! Anna wins the prize!
No, but great pic of her blue eyes...
A half smile.
Good job Anna!


Thursday, August 26, 2010

A Dream

Two nights ago I had the most vivid dream. Our whole family was at the hospital, in a conference room, sitting around a table. A doctor walked in, carrying a small, sickly baby. This is your baby, he said as he handed the baby to me. It wasn't Emma, because she was already in the room.

I cradled the baby. Soon, it was just me and the baby in the room as I continued to hold the baby close. I can almost feel that baby in my arms, even now, days later.

Sometime later Paul came in and I told him I wanted to take this baby home.

Then I woke up.

I'm not one for interpreting dreams or for trying to make sense of them. But every once in a while, I'll have a dream that will stay with me. This was one of those dreams. The more I thought about it, the more I wondered if the baby in the dream was the baby I miscarried. And the more I thought about that, the sadder I became.

I've thought of that dream several times over the past few days and many times as I've held Emma, I've thought of the baby I've lost. My arms still long to hold that baby and my heart aches to know it, as I know my other children. I can't put into words how lonesome I am for that baby, that little life that I knew for only eleven short weeks.

Our house is full and our lives are blessed; yet, I long for the day when I can embrace and hold our baby that was gone too soon.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Smiles and Blue Eyes

(Ok, I know I have six other children. More pictures of them coming soon....)

Emma at 7 weeks

Precious one, so small, so sweetDancing in on angel feet.
Straight from heaven's brightest star,
What a miracle you are!
Sweet Emma Grace.
How we love her.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Sunday Morning

Emma looked so cute Sunday morning that we had to snap a few pictures of her. She looked like a baby doll.
I LOVE these little shoes.
They were Ellie's when she was a baby. I'm so glad I saved a few things to pass on to Emma.
The girls and I are on a search for girly socks this week. I haven't been able to find any yet.
Sometimes it's still hard to believe I have another little girl.

Emma makes many faces, and we've been trying to capture a smile on film.

Like here, we just missed it.
Here's kind of a half smile.

This is as close as we've gotten so far. Maybe tomorrow....

Friday, August 20, 2010

Emma at 6 Weeks

Emma turned six weeks old on Tuesday. Hard to believe she's getting so big so fast. She is still a great, easy, content baby. We are very blessed. She has been sleeping from about 10:30pm to 4:30am, and then back to sleep from about 5 to 9.
She started smiling yesterday! Real smiles in response to being talked to.
I'm not sure how much she weighs, but I'm guessing at least 12 or 12 and 1/2 pounds. She is also very long.
She doesn't suck her thumb, but likes to put her fist up to her mouth when she's sleeping. She also enjoys the pacifier.
She still sleeps in the bassinet, but is quickly outgrowing it.

She still looks very much like Anna, and somewhat like Zack. I have pics of Anna at 6 weeks, and they could be twins.
Emma Grace is a wonderful baby and we are so blessed to have her.


We spent the last 2 days of our vacation in Clearwater, where we lived for 11 years. We stayed with some dear friends of ours and had a wonderful time catching up. We were also able to visit with my brother and his family. The girls
My brother's children- Andie Mae and Ethan with our children.
Sam playing baseball. He really whacked that ball!

Andie Mae and my brother Jon playing baseball. She also really whacked the ball!
Ethan and Sam being silly
Cute, silly boys
Andie Mae. She is 7 and beautiful!Ellie and Andie Mae surveying the barbie paraphernalia.
It was a nice, relaxing vacation. We enjoyed the vacation house very much, but enjoyed just as much spending time with family and friends.
Now, onto real life. We are all ready to be on some sort of a routine, and with school starting in a few weeks, that will happen. Our house has been in some sort of chaos since November, when I found out I was pregnant. We have not been "normal" since then, so we (well, at least Paul and I) are itching to get back on a regular routine.
Here's hoping it actually happens!