Boy or Girl

With Paul, my oldest, I did not want to find out if he was a boy or girl before his birth. His dad did. Very badly. And even asked the ultrasound tech behind my back what the baby was. Thankfully, she didn't tell him, because I KNOW there is no way he would have been able to keep that secret! But, I knew Paul was a boy. I knew as sure as there was a baby in my womb, that he was a boy, so I was really not surprised when he was born. I'll never forget Paul, yelling to me in the delivery room, "You got your boy!"

With Zack, the natural inclination was to want a girl. I don't remember wanting a girl real bad, but I do know we were pleased when we found out he was a boy. With him, we found out before he was born, and it was just as exciting as finding out at the birth.

Now, with Anna, Paul was beside himself hoping for a girl. He prayed and prayed and would not discuss boy names. I remember after finding out on the ultrasound that indeed, she was a girl, and then calling him. He was speechless and teary. I was glad to have a girl.

I wanted another girl with Ellie. I wanted her to be a girl for Anna. But unlike Paul Jr., I didn't know until the ultrasound that she was a girl, and we were so thankful for that.

I knew with Sam like I knew with Paul, Jr. I knew this baby was a boy well before the ultrasound. God had given me a name after I miscarried the baby before him, and it was a boy name. No surprises here.

I so wanted another boy with Benjamin for Sam. I thought he might be a boy and when we found out on the ultrasound, I was thrilled! Now Sam and Ben could be as close as Paul and Zack, and Anna and Ellie.

With this baby, I have no feelings what it might be. The consensus in the family is that everyone wants a girl. I would like another girl. However, I wouldn't be one bit dissappointed with another boy. Ever since I miscarried, I have always asked God for a healthy baby. The gender really didn't matter, as long as the baby was here and healthy.

I am 17 weeks, and should have an ultrasound within the next month. We hope to find out what the baby is. It makes it easier to plan and we just like finding out early. We have no boy names picked out, so if it's a boy, we'll have to start thinking about that.

But like I said, girl or boy, I will be thrilled.